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Saturday, June 25, 2005

tai tai life day 1

Do the things I left out :
-A time for myself , preaparing myself for another step of enlightenment...next stage of progression . A process of rediscovering myyself , reinvented and recupating
-cooking a nice healthy meal ( enough of days of I called animals rejected junkies)
- wat's 2nite "chicken Broccoli cheese wif potatoe soup"
- take a walk and meet up wif friends .. let me see who I had met : henry teo and tor (simply got into some basketball stuff), bubbly Asiah(she's back to her fav company and colleagues again , Good for her !) ; say yen 'shi fu' ;ping wif her happening colleagues at zouk (got some renown wine treat moet and chandon :) shoick la ! ); wendy aka my evil twin doing some pampering facial/massage and ad hoc con job again...; fredla (got into emirates ...Good For her !) ; Diana Hoon ; we had a crazy saturday nite fever at various club hopping and her big group of party animals !
-clear up room
-update my resume(ready for the upcoming bz week)
-activated msg
-reading "Tuesday with Morries" (a great book and a true story of a wise teacher to mentor you in this profound place called world )
-update current affairs
-sing , prepared for next superstar audition (yaya pauline .. join me la)
-swimming



i will be ready for next challenge anytime.....hupm ... soon









Your Birthdate: April 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.

The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.

There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude.



You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.

Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.

You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.



You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.

Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about.

You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive.

You are subject to rapid ups and downs.



What Does Your Birth Date Mean?



















Your Deadly Sins



Sloth: 80%

Envy: 40%

Gluttony: 40%

Greed: 40%

Wrath: 20%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 31%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.


How Sinful Are You?


Anonymous scribbled this at 1:56 AM...

Friday, June 24, 2005

Welcome my new bunny to my family!!!!!!!

Got into a massive dilemma ....again ...

Should i really want to work at least 70 hours per week , 7 days a week. In a banquet environment. ??????

IT is a challenging man , oh God....
I guess .. i wait for God to give me signal soon.
No matter God gave me wat kind of signal .. I will accept it coz I believe it's the best.

i just love back to zero now but I am rich ...of experiences and friends.
On the another hand, I am gonna rest for a while till where God wants me to go. Gonna do Ground Job ! !!!! yeah !


Anonymous scribbled this at 5:12 AM...

Thursday, June 23, 2005

There's new singer on town ---- Corrinne May

Her songs basically connecting me with good Lord. Giving me strength and stablised me ---Simply keeping safe in this crazy world.

Her voice is so touching and her lyrics is so touching . The song is direct and concise to the point that it just strike a chord in my heart.
IF I say touching .. it is too clique .. should be a voice that is from within the heart. A voice that almost let you feel that for that instant moment .... in a heavenly paradise that is completely free from worries. IT is almost healing !
She is a talented SINGAPOREAN inspirational song and lyric writer and singer ...coolz

Her song is what I am feeling now.

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

---F L Y A W A Y Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo


Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

To find an answer, To get through it allI just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe.....

--E V E R Y T H I N G I N I T S T I M E Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo & Carole Bayer Sager

I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world....
Oh and life likes pretending that it's On a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek
S A F E I N A C R A Z Y W O R L D Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo


Fall to fly
On winter days the snow would glisten like a sea of diamonds in the sun
All bundled up in hat and mittens
I'd be out the door and on the run
To the meadow my place
Beneath branches of icy lace
Arms held out eyes shut closed
I'd lean back and just let go

And I would Fall to Fly
A snow white angel I'd spread my wings to the sky
How I'd glide

But soon I craved the city lights
They seemed far brighter than the moon on snow
Turned in my wings for earthly things
Forgot the feel of clouds on indigo
I was strong, I was proud
Keeping both feet on the ground
I feared love like I feared heights
I just didn't realise

That I can Fall to Fly
A snow white angel I spread my wings to the sky
Yes I can Fall to Fly

'cause now you've come along
Like falling snow at dawn
You move me
And with you by my side

we will climb straight to the heaven's skies

yes I can Fall to Fly
A snow white angel I spread my wings to the sky
Yes I can Fall to Fly
'cause now I'm gonna give love a try
Fall to fly

Lyric by
http://www.corrinnemay.com/


Anonymous scribbled this at 1:02 AM...

Saturday, June 18, 2005

CHao lians just want to tell you - DON'T MESS WITH ME. Posted by Hello


Anonymous scribbled this at 1:56 AM...



sassy galz can be cute too ok Posted by Hello


Anonymous scribbled this at 1:52 AM...



Waz-na fight ?  Posted by Hello


Anonymous scribbled this at 1:50 AM...

Friday, June 17, 2005

Journey ...Angela Zhang

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you


Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong


I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you


Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know whyI do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you to you


Thanks God everything you do. I know you have hear me . The past and right now. I want it and you gives to me so freely , unlimitedly. Despite I have been asking a lot of things, but you forgives me for been such a spoilt. I know why ... You want me to learn something from it and i guess... you also wanting me to become a better person. Everything happens for a reason and the reasons are only for me to know .


When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control.....

yesterday , I stepped in to HR department. A folder which hides hideous subject. i fliched in those black and white while the hair stood spine chilling knowing some more cruel truth about certain things I am really ...hiding in the dark shadow. Things that I rather be not knowing... There are all kinds of people with their idiosyncratic way and it is a real challenge to deal with them. Hurling misleading Critism and fallacy words exchanged.....emotional included will be better. people decoded any harmless emotion and words from an guileless person to a hazardous dagger from delusion. Or..are u juz too stressed? Am I just too simple for this complicated world? My thinking is too complicated for a simple situation. irony I realised. In what way can i defence myself that i am unintended and real where people had some much "authentication" against me. What can I say if my next sentences will lead to assumed irredeemable freak?

if defencing itself in the expense of countering others leading to more complicated stories...lets see how long can you be awdward wif the presence of the other parties any longer. Such a battle, nobody is a winner so why not I be a loser?


I know I will falter I know I will cry....

it is not easy to say bye, how much pride to leeward to come a long way to here, overcoming abnormally treacherous road (can't believe how unlucky am i ) on my way to a gleaming of shining light lit a smoother path finally ......yet seem an unforseenable invisble leash yanked the way destinatedly.
Knock down and break your heart ...once more into pieces... finally push me over to the edge and break down. In the end, the pressure is just too much and sorry , this time i am not strong enough to resist giving up . I have been too strong for too long. Emotion is reverent.

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong......

If daydreaming for others is your reasons for redeeming yourselves favourably, let daydreamers be your heroes.

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
...
The price to pay is worth it, for many people don't get it . Price to pay the regrets of the things you undo is so hefty that it is enough to payback for a lifetime . A chance to learn about your weakness and strength is priceless coz weakness realisation is shedding the only enemy our life. The test to strengthen your character is priceless. A chance to meet people who questions my possible conciousness whether physically, intellectually or morally is priceless. A chance to hear God once again is priceless.

Sometimes I am just too positive that it becomes a weakness, doh i can't afford the luxury to be negative doh ....

The mind is its own lace , and in itself can make heaven of hell and a hell of heaven . --- milton


Anonymous scribbled this at 8:56 PM...

Thursday, June 16, 2005

duh .... darks clouds cover me again .

Woman ... is really an ever-changing substance.

At first , it is a desire.
At the aim of achieving it , they pursuit wholeheartly
After the desire at it's hand.
They begin to pick on it.
negativity came ....
thinking been conned
by hook or crook
lose it
And begin to misses it
regret it ?

huh huh


I did it .
Break the string into 2 .
Separate them into light and darkness.
It is only a thin fine line.
You told me that I dun have the guts to do that .
I am not chicken out.
I am just giving time for myself.
Impulse is a stupid way to move on.
Till the next morning I wake up
God tells me to move on
He had something wonderful for me.
He said.
Have u ever experience it ?
sometimes u hate it, but at the end of the day ..... it does not matter. U like it anyway.
The factual is that the cons weigh more than it pros.
Then ..... u juz dun care much anymore.
it is a sensible decision ?
But it that matter anymore?
leaving is inevitable.
What have been done , can't be undo.
tears had fallen
i tell myself ... what is the thing that can hold me back ?
Nothing ..
fakers i can't , I am sorry
simplicity I am , I am sorry
I just can't dun care abt words
words , in the end, can break me , perhaps
Although I've been strong
I thought my strength will lasts
Till the tears drop....
Drop drop drop
Come and push me to the edge
Let me fall
if u are happy
i will be glad
words exchanged
angry and bewildered overlooked
I am not a creep , I am sorry
I am not difficult, I am sorry
naysayers, God pls forgives them .
things always misunderstood
circumstance had never been explained
I am sorry
it is leading to a large snowball.
So what if I spoke about
So if I can pretend
happiness is such a 14 000 feet away .
This is an omen
It is a God decision.
I just can't explained


Anonymous scribbled this at 7:59 AM...

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

I begin to love this job more and more...

So much challenges !
I really look forward for every working day
Every flight is different and there are so much to learn!


Series of tubulences and tubulence ....testing my patiences!
Testing my character

Will I able to withstand the endless adversities?

I got to handle

my colleagues
my superior
my customer
my duties
weather
multi-taskercity
myimages
my character
my cool to handle all sort of unexpected happening without panic.
the complexity of human relationship and also the contridiction of it

Today I just got ppl to say something that i think is rather hupm ... unpleasant . rubbish-worthy comments
i think she got a problem with me . Hupm
This is wat I feel
1) disgusted
2)judgemental
3)tainted by those batch of black crows ...hupm .....gals that had badly portrayed me . I am adsurdly disappointed .
4)childish and gross
spiteful!
Well , she is nothing to wants to harm me but she is just honest, frank, and sometimes to the extent of blunt and tactless. Like minority of others , she had a misconception abt me that I nd some babysit? (let rejoice the power of rumours and wrongful gossip by the childish others.)

Come on ! Lets admit it ! The human nature of people merely nodded along with their friends. Friends they think they want to be with and think of their same kind. They preferred not try to convince them the otherwise. Why? Because their friends look down on her, and they are afraid to contradict them. looking down ? That is a cruel fact , they take it that they can look down on people who are different from them.


They would have defended the poor guy- But they found it hard to do it for the loyalty as friend, or for simple JUSTICE.

In exchange, I welcomes brutal honesty back, without complain.

they tok abt others , they never think abt how good they are . Do they get a good compliment letter from customer that the feedback is all the good thing about me ? Do they got compliment letter from their colleague. Many of the time , i got compliment and likes from my customers but they have not have the chances to write it down on words.... If i can get a compliment letter now , I can get it in the future and I shall not ... mind my words to spite at those ppl who dun worth of my time . Save the salivery , save the water , save the earth , water is precious! i shall use action to prove my quality work

etc etc ... yawn .... I just got immune with it ... coz u know why ? I could not get myself bothered feeling bad with those rubbish comments by people who contridict themselves ---- people who have their words so crude and hurtful that they think these comments can hurt me. How i shuddered with those ppl. Thanks to them , i emerged stronger each time... becoz I am an aries.I do observe ppl . I know how they work and how they behave phoniness, in front of the others. I am hearing again and again that , nobody can prove my innocence except from my customer.

Do u know how I deal with these ppl ? i keep quiet and do my work. okay okay okay ..But at the back when nobody is watching I giggled with delight... then I will get my compliment letter from customer and slove it into their mouth the next moment they open their mouth
Thoes showed loyalty and protectiveness towards me, I silently appreciated it
On the other hand , can simplicity me be a complicated superhuman
who can juggles balls like a clown ?

hey , that is difficult man !

That is the price that I have to pay if I want to remain a distance from colleagues and low profile.

Huh huh I got carried away . ,my mom complaining ... I am going to slp now


Anonymous scribbled this at 10:29 AM...

Monday, June 06, 2005

Goody Goody news

I got 2 compliment letters last week and 1 compliment letter for me from my customer this week.
Mua haha !
Siew Hui ! Keep it up !


Anonymous scribbled this at 10:51 PM...

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